Pretty Pastel Please Stop

This is going to make me look insane, but I need to post it.

This girl used to follow me like four or five years ago when she had significantly less followers. Then it started.

mine

hers

before she posted the YesStyle video her account didn’t have many views but the YesStyle video blew her account up.

I was genuinely happy for her, at that time I was basically the only person on YouTube making YesStyle videos. Mine never blew up because they were just for fun, Alex made her YesStyle videos pretty excessive and frequent.

Personally I can’t handle that overconsumption, it’s too expensive for me and I don’t have the space to store all those clothes. I’ve only got one body so I don’t need to be making a $1k haul every week.

I stopped enjoying her content around this time so I unsubbed and forgot about her. Until a video of hers turned up in my recommended years later and I found this

If you watch both of our content you can see the similarities. There’s also countless other stuff that I’ve mentioned in Instagram stories or private videos or tiktok or whatever that then pop up in her videos.

I can’t spend anymore energy on this because I already feel insane. I have legit tried to distance myself from her content so many times and she keeps seeming to follow me.

We have this cycle now that keeps repeating where I come up with an idea that other people aren’t doing so much, I make it, it flops, Alex makes it, my videos get pushed out of the tags that I managed to rank in and she gets loads of views.

I’m aware that this probably makes me sound jealous or bitter and hell yeah I’m jealous, I have massive childhood trauma that seriously affects my motivation levels so I can’t be consistent enough to find fast success, and I keep trying to forget about this cycle.

I remind myself that this makes me look insane and I shouldn’t tell anyone but I’m starting to not care about that anymore.

How is this happening? Actually? Please leave me alone homie, I know you used to follow me, I’m stoked for you that your channel blew up but please stop moving in the same direction as me, I’ve literally made content decisions based on what I think you won’t copy but surprise surprise look who appears every time

Go copy from a channel that’s bigger than yours not mine with its 1k subs I’m not even monetized

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